I want to talk about seeing what you want to see. <vague post is vague>

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That’s what it seems like.

We live in a world where people do stupid things. We also live in a world where actions speak louder than words. With that, I’m in full agreement.

However, it is my belief that it isn’t the “stupid things” people do that define them. It’s the great things they do in spite of having done these stupid things that define who they are. If you can’t look beyond these stupid things, then you’ll miss out on what else they have to offer.

Everyone has room to grow, but growing takes time.

With that said, I also agree with you that it is not yours or anyone’s responsibility to change who they are or tell them what to do, but it is your right to tell them that you are affected by it and have them try to see by how much. Exclaiming that they act childish and then turn around and letting your problems stew into resentment until your grudges blind you is also very hypocritical.

We are human, and as such it’s hard to accept or recognize our own faults when they happen.

But I guess I can see your side, too. 

It’s hard not to feel like the stupid things don’t affect you because you’re trying to make this relationship work. In this aspect, you cannot deny that you have optimism, that you’re not entirely “realistic.” It’s just at times I feel like you haven’t given it your all. If you close yourself off too soon, you’ll miss experiencing something meaningful. 

Maybe you have given it your all and I’m just not seeing it. And I guess for that, I’m sorry.

I guess that I’m just the kind of person who sees perfection where others see flaw.

Last Year’s Success Chart:

1. GET MY DRIVER’S LICENSE.
2. Pull off straight A’s on my transcript.
3. Draw the portrait version of my “left sleeve tattoo.”
4. Play more piano.
5. Use less internet lingo.
6. Be able to do ~100 push-ups and work on my nonexistent abs.
7. Stick to this Facebook challenge I’m attending.
8. Visit Jesus and Fishie. Then take pictures.
9. Travel to New York for my 21st birthday.
10. Finish my sketchbook that Kaylah gave to me for my birthday years ago.
11. STOP PROCRASTINATING.

Okay, so I didn’t really pay attention to last years resolutions. If anything, I used more internet lingo. A whole bunch of circumstances have changed the way this year played out and I suppose that has to do in part with 7 (which was to say ‘Yes’ to everything, AKA “The Yes Man Challenge”). As a result, I feel that I’ve gotten more social and confident. So, in a way, I guess I still achieved a bit of what I wanted to do.

I was actually surprised that I got the stuff I did crossed off. I think I would have managed to visit LA more than New York, but it ended up being the opposite. I also found that I was able to maintain a strong streak of push ups and stuff, so I’ve maintained myself if anything. And of course, the big one, I FINALLY got my license! I spend a lot of time giving rides to people to pay back my karma as it was for having asked for so many rides in the past. As it turns out, I like being a taxi. 

2012 is going to be an important year. This will pretty much be the year that will determine where my life will be going seeing as, you know, I’m graduating from college and stuff. Time to start anew.

New Years Resolutions for 2012:

1. GET A JOB.
2. Keep working to build Alpha Kappa Psi at UCSC.
3. Make some connections with my frat brothers.
4. Make connections with firms and work toward my CPA.
5. Try not to speak as softly/Speak with more confidence.
6. Go see/rent a movie once a week.
7. Read more books.
8. Workout everyday (in hopes of a slimmer figure).
9. Design that left sleeve tattoo.
10. Draw something new everyday, maybe an art project once a month.
11. Make a trip to LA, Canada, and/or New York and visit friends.

So yeah, intense. If you feel like helping out with any of these, (words of encouragement, good book/movie suggestions, sketch requests), I would welcome it. It’s going to be a tough year, but I also need to make time for myself and time for friends.

This year will test my time management skills more than anything. -SIGH-

I’m currently rejoicing at the fact that I have a sustainable WiFi connection right now. 

If you’re the least bit curious, I’m having a great time in New York. Today we went bowling and then Kaylah cooked us some cream cheese stuffed chicken breast with a rice pilaf. I finally watched Bridesmaids for the first time. It was so funny and slightly scarring at the same time. Now we’re watching the current Jeff Dunham special.

Tomorrow, we’re expecting to keep it lazy. Here’s my plan:

• We’ll be having delicious crepes for breakfast.
• I’ll probably go on Tumblr a lot.
• Maybe draw some more.
• And, because I’m staying with culinary students, we’ll most likely be marathoning episodes of Top Chef.

Also, Kaylah will be cooking a big Xmas dinner and Caitlin will be baking us a spice cake. I’m so excited!

Talk to you guys tomorrow! I’ll be wishing for my first ever snow day/white Christmas tonight.

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I feel so embarrassed and stupid.

I fell yesterday during a game of tennis and landed on my left ankle and right knee. They were hurting really bad yesterday and they’re still swollen today. I can walk pretty normally, (slow, but still normal), but climbing up and down stairs is a bitch.

I’m forever indebted to Thankie, who helped me out last night getting to our finance meeting, for carrying me up cardiac hill, and for making sure I got home (on the top floor of the complex).

Hopefully, this will all be healed by the weekend for Andrea’s party and for Double D’s and Haruka’s sleepover.

My collegiate plan, as the year started, was to tack on a minor to my degree. Namely, the Technology and Information Systems Management minor, which is the ideal minor because a lot of its prerequisites I have already taken with my major. 

However, this class I’m currently taking, TIM 105: Management of Technology I, is involving a lot of work. It’s not like I’m too lazy to do all of this work, or even that any of this work is hard. What it is is that the professor has a really unrealistic mindset of how much time we should all dedicate to this class and a ridiculous mindset of how all the work should be formatted. 

Just last week, I spent probably a good 15 hours finishing my midterm that I didn’t feel really confident in at all. I got it back today and, with some relief, I got a “C” grade on it. The reasoning: I was missing some formatting on one of the problems, and some numerical errors on another problem. But it wasn’t like I didn’t provide the information. If formatting wasn’t the issue, I would’ve easily gotten an “A-” all things considered.

Now, just today, he starts going over the homework due Thursday. It’s in 3 parts and he estimates a total of yet another 15 hours of work. This is literally like another midterm, only I have less time to work on it.

What with:

• Classes today, tomorrow, and Thursday.
• I have to study for a midterm in one of my other classes on Thursday.
• There’s a lab assignment due tonight.
• I can correct some of my mistakes on the midterm and turn it in Thursday at the latest to get more points.
• I have a finance committee meeting tonight, which I still need to contact some of the other committee heads for budget plans.
• I’m taking one of my frat sisters to the doctors office tomorrow.
• I have a group meeting tomorrow for the project, before which time I need to finish and correct my work for the project.
• I need sleep, what with me driving to Sacramento on Thursday night after the mandatory frat meeting.

This week just needs to be over.

After much thought, though, I’m thinking that I won’t declare the minor so that I can actually work on stuff pertaining to my major and what I want to do with my degree and what not and so forth…

It’s not really over yet for me, but I’ll give you a gist of what happened (just so that I can waste a few more precious moments from my report that’s due at noon).

I start rambling a little bit, so I’m going to put a read more link here…

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I was far too lazy/bored to post all those picture posts. Valuable time well spent, considering I have a big essay type thing to do that’s due Tuesday and I have to plan to have it finished by Monday night…

Okay, so I caught up with Pottermore, finally, after a bunch of school happening all at once. Here’s what’s what so far:

• My pet is a siemese cat, mainly out of remembrance of one of our housecats, Mama Cat, who lived around 23+ years.
• My wand is made of sycamore wood with a unicorn core, 12 1/4”, slightly springy, a wand fitting for the curious adventurer.
• I was sorted into Hufflepuff, (my second choice), which I’m quite happy with because our common room is right next to the kitchen and has a beautiful view of the fields outside. 
• Potions class is a bitch. It took me 5 tries to successfully make a potion to cure boils.
• I need to practice my spells, but I don’t really have any friends at the moment willing to help. Incendio took me about 3 tries to do with a 100+ effectiveness.

Also, might I add that Professor McGonagall’s back story was pretty neat. It’s kind of tragic that she couldn’t be with the one she loved truly, but it was probably a wise decision to not have them live in lies. 

Hopefully her classes aren’t too hard. P: